I forget about the medication sometimes.
It’s routine to take them,
But it’s no longer common knowledge in my head saying, “you’re on meds all the time.”
It’s been since the end of March.
I don’t even know if they work.
I’ve rarely missed a dose,
I don’t take them on nights when I drink anymore because it’s just fucks me up the next day.
Nights when I take them late I only half my dose.
I still worry they make me tired.
But I don’t even know if there are side effects, or if there ever was, other than being tired.
I still get the mood swings every so often, which is why I’m unsure if they’re helping, or doing anything at all.
I just don’t like the idea of always being on medication. It’s not a solution, only a temporary fix.
It takes a lot of will power to start them tho. So props to everyone who has to.